Time to Reconnect after 17 years?

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It all began 17 years ago when I was 16 years old and my boyfriend was 15 years old. We began a whirlwind romance that didn't last longer than about 2 months. We loved each other deeply, intensely, and passionately. I feel we were too young to understand and appreciate the dynamics of such a rare and powerful love. I began dating someone else and then a few months later, moved to Florida to pursue my juvenile dreams. I'd come back every summer to visit friends and family and I always made it a point to stop over and visit his parents, also in the hopes I would see him there too. One year I did. He was dating someone at the time. I still felt the same about him at that moment, I was still in love with him. I later found out the girlfriend felt threatened by me and made him purchase her an engagement ring. That relationship didn't last much longer. A few years later, while still living in Florida, I became friends with a guy who I later started dating. One evening while we were hanging out at a local bar, I received a phone call. I couldn't hear the caller very well so I went outside. It was him. He was calling me out of the blue, to see how I was, to see what I was doing. He asked when I was coming back home to visit and I said my boyfriend and I hadn't planned on a vacation. More years passed. I eventually married the friend turned boyfriend. He and I began our family. A few months after the birth of my son, I began having dreams of my first love. Each dream increased in urgency. I needed to see him, I needed to tell him something. In the final dream, I finally met up with him and expressed that I had been looking for him for a long time. And if in our distance future, if we aren't with anyone, that I would love to be with him again. He agreed. A few more years passed. As fate would have it, we lost our house in Florida and I moved myself, my husband, and our 2 kids back home. I felt it was just going to be a matter of time before I ran into him. It was a small town. It was just a matter of when and where. And then it happened. It was an amazing reunion. I hadn't physically seen him since we were 15/16 years old. We exchanged phone numbers and I said I wanted to visit his parents too. At this moment in our lives, I was married and he was dating someone. I began to realize I was having the classic butterflies in my stomach, my heart would race, and I would feel all giddy. I felt 16 again. But this was wrong. I should be feeling this was about my husband. I had to put an end to visiting them and focus on my husband and my relationship. One day while sitting in a Barnes and Noble, searching for a relationship book to help my husband and I, a song came on that made me stop, listen, and cry. It was speaking to me at that very moment. My husband and I found the album and loved the music. The group is The Script and the song was Breakeven. There wasn't a day that went by that I didn't find myself thinking of him. I felt like I was going crazy. I began to journal my craziness. I felt I was obsessively thinking about him and I hadn't even seen him in about a year. I then found out he was engaged to the girl he was dated when I last ran into him. Then the real crazy coincidences began to take place. My husband and I ended up going to a Script concert approximately a year later. It was late when the concert ended and it took a while to get back onto the highway. As we were driving, I was looking out of the passenger side window at the passing cars. I couldn't believe my eyes, in the car next to me, could it be? Oh my goodness! I reached for my cell phone and sent a quick text. I sat patiently waiting and watching for the driver to reach for their phone. No such luck. So I called. It was him. What are the odds that he would be right next to me, on the same highway, the same day, the same time, right after I listened to the music that "called" to me a year prior? Wow...I am still at awe on that one. I journaled more and more. I felt in my heart and knew it to be truth at the same time, that we would be together someday. I didn't or don't know how, but I feel it. January of this year, I wrote about him again. I said "if he and I are to be together at some point in our lives, than show me a sign....show me by calling off the engagement." I am forever asking for signs. I ask to see or hear his first or last name or even his initials. Randomly I will hear the song that reminds me of him on the radio. Bits and pieces are always there, right in front of my face. Cosmic intervention has just hit the fan. He called me on October 30, 2012 to tell me that he loves me, he always has, and that he wants to be with me. He called off the engagement. He's been looking for me in all the women he's been dating and just realized it was me he wanted this whole time. And I feel the exact same way about him. The dilemma? I am married and I have 2 kids. Is this just some crazy story that I have been weaving the past 17 years, are these coincidences, or is there a high source pointing me in the direction of this other person? I am at a crossroads on what path to take. We are told to follow our hearts and that's what I want to do, but it leaves a whole family is destruction. I have never felt this way about anyone else but him. Our souls connect on such a powerful and passionate level, I can't even begin to describe.
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Date submitted:Sun, 25 Nov 2012 23:13:06 +0000Coincidence ID:6697