Thematic Sycronistic Cluster

I fell in love with this girl Jess and we knew at the same time. Feb 4th. Everything about us was amazing. She was separated and having a tough time. She wanted her space so she left. I had been in love once years before with Lauren and had made a deal (prayed I guess) with her dead father that if he had brought her back to me I would never love again. Her father had died on July19th the year before we had gotten together. My birthday is July 19th (tomorrow). Also, Lauren and I had broken up twice on Feb 4th 2006 and 2008. When Jess had left, I messaged Lauren and asked her to speak with her father for me, which she did. The next day Jess came back. We went out to dinner that night. That night started a string of girls from my past sending me messages that were unprovoked and most sexual. I felt as though he was testing me so I had showed Jess all the messages so she knew I was not the one provoking them. Months later Jess started having a tough time again. I told her that even to this day I get a little emotional when I think of Lauren and that it is natural. I said that we had this connection and it wasn't about the sex. I even said that I barely remembered having sex with her but we had a connection that kept us together for 5 years on and off. One week later, I got a 10 text message long text from Lauren saying the same exact thing I said to Jess. Lauren is in Hawaii and we are in New England. They also have no connection to each other.The text was really out of nowhere and it had been 7 years since we last broke up (on Feb 4th). Jess left and I was heart broken but I decided that I would try to be as positive as possible and try to learn from her. Appreciation kept ringing in head. Jess was huge on it. Always would tell her kids to go to the appreciation station. Couple weeks later I reread Laurens text and was all about how she wished she could have appreciated me more for staying with her trough some of worst years. I got this weird feeling reading it. Lauren and had a sincere conversation about it and we had both apologized to each other and it felt good. Something didnt feel complete so I started to think about anyone who was involved. As I thought about people associated with either Lauren or Jess, 2 names had come to mind. Both times the names came to me, I got alerted from Facebook that those people had liked a status of mine. Very weird. To keep this short (kind of) I wound up on this journey through my past that started a string of apologies for things that never sat well with me. In all of this, there was one person that I hurt and I had pushed the thought so far away I never even thought about until a very weird coincidence occurred. I was on vacation and was sitting on the beach with my aunt looking at facebook. My cousin had checked into a lodge with her kids that was 10 minutes from where i was staying. I made plans to go see them. As I closed the Instant Messenger on Facebook, my news feed came up and there was picture of 3 girls. One of my exs, a girl I didn't know, and the sister of an old friend. Well that old friend had died of an overdose. He was with this girl Tammy that I ended of getting real close with and wound up dating shortly after his death. I never felt right doing it but it happened. Tammy and I had broken up after 9 months. I left her in a very disrespectful manner. I had also had left her to be Lauren again. This was last the time were ever together and we had broken up that time on Feb 4th 2008. I knew that I had to apologize to Tammy and also go to Georges grave to pay my respects and apologize. Through another set of coincidences I went to the cemetery to pay my respects, when I started talking to George, I noticed the date of his death. Feb 4th 2007. This is only part of the story. There have been many other coincidences and connections involved in all of this but this just the biggest part. It has lead me on a journey that I have no control over. There are more people and things involved and they are still constantly happening, especially now that I have been researching it.