My life and likeness are now a smash hit video game...

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Please hang in there with me...It's a very long story, but to start out I will introduce myself. My full legal name is Jesse H X, but whenever I can get away with it, I go by Jesse H only, because X is my step-fathers last name, whom I am permanently estranged from. I have blue eyes, colored bright red hair, and have had many extremely strange almost unbelievable coincidences in my life, but this one by far is, well, mind blowing. My therapist agrees with me. </p> <p>I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder Unspecified with Psychotic Features about 10 years ago. About 3 years ago I stopped taking my medication and started a downward spiral culminating in a full blown Psychotic breakdown that finally resulted in, among many other repercussions, an arrest. This was the first and only time I have ever had a legal issue. I've never even had a speeding ticket. </p> <p>So, anyway, I'm wandering around the town I grew up in, in an almost complete state of confusion and paranoid psychosis with brief periods of the overwhelming ecstasy of feeling on a higher plane of consciousness, complete and total connectedness with the universe, and access to paranormal entities. </p> <p> I "know" I am being watched and followed by some government agency because I "know" things and they are trying to get to me because of it. I "know" it has something to do with my fascination with everything esoteric, and recent interest/obsession with Pythagoreanism specifically. I felt that I knew a secret that I will never understand and the unspecified government agency wants me for it. I might even have special abilities I didn't know I had. I'm only wandering around town because I "know" the agency has already tapped my phone and bugged my house. I'm not entirely sure they want to hurt me, but I "know" they want to use this information for good or evil and I don't trust them. Along they way of my paranoid adventure on the sidewalk along the road across from my old highschool, I find a discarded t-shirt that says<br /> KEEP TALKING.<br /> I LIKE WATCHING YOUR LIPS MOVE.<br /> which in my mind, fully validates my paranoia. I am dodging every white car and van I saw because I was convinced I was being watched and followed by them. Simultaneously, in a state of extreme mental confusion, it was only natural and rational for me to follow the triangles as a guide or a sign of what to do, who to trust, where to go. </p> <p>Fast forward 3 years. </p> <p>Today, I am being properly treated with therapy and medication and am completely lucid. I still identify strongly with the triangle, not only as a mathematical symbol, but also as a representation of my reverence for related ancient philosophies and esoterica. </p> <p>A couple of months ago, my boyfriend stumbles across a newly released video game called 'Control'. It caught my eye in particular as the thumbnail logo for the game is simply an upside-down triangle. </p> <p>It is the story of the antagonist, named Jesse Faden, who in addition to having an almost identical name as me, also has bright red hair and blue eyes. Below is the summary I have copied from Wikipedia: </p> <p>Control is an action-adventure video game developed by Remedy Entertainment and published by 505 Games. Control was released on 27 August 2019 for Microsoft Windows, PlayStation 4, and Xbox One. The game revolves around the Federal Bureau of Control (FBC), a secret U.S. government agency tasked with containing and studying phenomena that violate the laws of reality. As Jesse Faden (voiced by Courtney Hope), the Bureau's new Director, the player explore the Oldest House – the FBC's paranormal headquarters – and utilize powerful abilities in order to defeat a deadly enemy known as the Hiss, which has invaded and corrupted reality. Throughout the game, the player gains new abilities by finding Objects of Power, mundane objects like a rotary phone or a floppy disc imbued with energies from another dimension, that have been at the center of major paranormal events and since recovered by the FBC. </p> <p>I could go on and on about the details though... There are so many aspects to this strange coincidence. </p> <p>An additional coincidence lies within the timing of this story. Although the video game was released August 2019, it began production in summer 2017, right around the time of my psychotic break. </p> <p>The third and final side of this coincidence triangle also lies within the timing, as about a week prior to this discovery I started re-reading a book titled Fluke: The Math and Myth of Coincidence, looking to settle my mind and maybe find some answer to a previous additional unbelievable coincidence- a case of my mistaken identity that still, at times, keeps me up at night, just wondering </p> <p>what are the chances of that?!?<br /> Is someone really watching and listening after all? </p> <p>Now I have another reason to question everything.
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Date submitted:Mon, 04 May 2020 12:18:58 +0000Coincidence ID:10446